Trust & Obey

As many of you know I have been seeking direction for my future for quite some time. I have not been happy with my job or my career for a long time. Well, in the past 1 1/2 years I have seen my income drop to 1/3 of what it used to be. A few months ago my family decided we had no choice but to move in with my in-laws. However we knew that would not be enough and that I still needed to have a change of direction. I had sent out dozens of resumes with no luck and to be honest, with no real interest in any of those jobs. Well, finally I decided I had to pick a direction and go in it. A couple of months ago I told Crystal that I was going to sign up for a class A CDL course this August if nothing else came up. She was not thrilled but understood I was trying to do whatever was necessary to support our family.

A few weeks ago, the Saturday before Palm Sunday, I was working and all day long I kept feeling this urge to pray for direction. What I kept thinking was that I wanted to tell the Lord that I needed His help. I wanted to tell Him that if He wanted me to go somewhere else to let me know. I also wanted to tell Him to please make it obvious because He knows how dense I can be sometimes. Well, I tried stopping by the Chapel but it was closed that evening. So I went home where I had a hard time finding a quiet place. The next day I was on stage for the Palm Sunday performance and I kept picturing the image of Jesus riding into Jerusalem on that Sunday morning. I kept thinking what a shining example of obedience He is to us because He knew where that road was heading yet He proceeded obediently to do the Father's will.

I guess I should say at this point that I normally serve as a counselor at the 11:00 service (I know some of you are rolling on the floor right now). Well, my job is to be available to help with anyone who wants to join the church, accept Christ, or has any other needs. I was not planning on being there that day because of the choir schedule but at the last minute realized that I could get there to be available if needed. After the service was over and the greetings were done, Pastor Bobby asked me if he could have a word with me. I said sure. He told me that I had been on his mind lately and felt he needed to ask me if I had ever thought about going into the ministry. I was in shock. I tried to answer his questions and give some reasons why I could not. He already had an answer to one of my biggest obstacles which was a school that provides all the training without needing a college degree. I told him I would think and pray about it. Since then, my mind has done back flips with the debate inside my head. I have prayed about it numerous times and every fiber of my being tells me this is where He wants me to go. I have no idea how God can use "me", but He must have a plan. I know some of you will think I am nuts and have gone off the deep end but until you believe in the power of prayer and have faith in Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior you may never understand. For those that do, please don't think this is something that I am "fit" for or "obvious". I can think of many people who would be a better fit for it. Like I said I don't know what He will use me for but only he can do it.

Today I went forward and announced my intentions to pursue a life in the ministry with all the support of my family and brothers and sisters in Christ. We have no idea how this will happen or where He will send us but we are going to trust in Him.